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Time:11:53 pm
i thought i had moved on to liking a new guy.. and even tho all my friends HATE him i didnt care cuz i liked him. He always says the right things and make you feel good.. even when i get pissed at him he knows exactly what to say to make me forget why i was even mad in the frist place. I just like got hit with a lighting bolt and realized that this guy might be great but he isnt the one for me. It seems like he is always complaining that he doesnt have a girlfriend.. though he could have someone if he just looked harder. He complains that he doesnt have alot of money but he wants to quit his job. Even though i love him to death and would do anything for him.. and iam always there for him and he know it. I just can't like someone like that anymore. I need someone that when they actually have a problem the comfront it and deal with it and get over it. Instead of crying about it for a week.
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Time:11:39 pm
I guess i finally came to my senses and realized that a person that i really cared about doesnt care about me. They treat me like shit! I don't wanna make a big deal about to them but iam so sick of it! Iam always nice to them.. iam supportive even when i think an idea or something that is happening in there life is stupid. i still act like i care. Which is more than i can say for them. They always remind me when my life is shitty or when i screw up. I am so sick of it. I have let alot of things go in the past but iam at my breaking point now. If they say something that pisses in off just alil iam afriad iam going to let go on them ( which other say i should) I'll end up saying thing i dont wanna say but sometime people need to hear the truth whether it hurt their feelin or not!
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Time:10:38 pm
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boredum sux! neways mom and her man are fighting. You think i would be all mad cuz i have to listen to it and be caught in the middle. But actually iam very happy about it because she made the comment tonight that he was going to screw the relationship if he kept pushing her and drilling her. I think within the next year and a halfish before they get married that this could all be done and over with and i have to say that i would be VERY very happy!
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Time:10:07 pm
i haven't done this in along time but i feel like saying somethings... i just got home from germany and i loved it! it was so beautiful there. I refused to come home the last couple of days! I wanted to stay there.. i told my family that their was nothing holding me back at home and i wasnt going back. But of course i came home and of course i hate it. I hate the shit that i got hit with the first weak back. My family is fighting so their is a ton of pressure there. Then i had a mini melt down with having to see an old flame. You think you are over and done with someone and then they walk back in your life and you realize you are back where you started. then you hate yourself for allowing you to be back in that situation. My mom finally picked a wedding date. Its so long away no telling what will happen in that time. School is starting way to soon this year. But its ok cuz i only have one yr left!! thank god.. but i think iam going to take some basic courses at pima this yr. SO the work will be in over load. Being this age shouldnt be so stressful and hard.
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Time:11:09 pm
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I have had a really bad day and thought that i needed to let somethings out! So brian is drivng me crazy! he and my mom got in this huge fight on friday night and they like havent talked this whole weekend! It has been the worst situation ever to be put in the middle of. I thought they were gonna go out to night so i would have some peace but no they got in to a fight about where to go so they stayed in. I tryed to make plans to get outta my house with like everyone that i know but they all had plans. So we decied we would rent a movie. how hard cud that be right... well guess what it was a pain. You put brians tv in the main room but its screwin all out other stuff up ( like dvd) so they got in this huge fight about that! I am just waiting for them to fall apart before anymore wedding plain happen.. that would be a mircale!
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Time:10:18 pm
Current Mood:happyhappy
Went back to school today.. for the first time in a long time i was happy about it. Iam actually happy. It was good to see those people that i was dreding on seeing. I got a very nice compliment for a certain someone that made me even more happy. And i came to realize that things between me and another certain someone will never be the same again. I still look at him and think hes cute but thats really it. I dont know iam not really all that in to either one of them right now which is a big accomplishment for me. Tired and have to get up at 5!
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Time:08:26 pm
Current Mood:tiredtired
Hey emily.. this is just a letter to you. I was to lazy to email you. I dont remember if i thanked you for burning me the eminem cd or not but anyways THANKYOU!! your my hero!! Also you brother is freaking HOTT!! lol i know you prolly dont wann hear that but he is. I had alot of fun today! lov ya OHH P.S. Post pictures of your hair tomorrow
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Time:11:23 pm
Current Mood:happyhappy
Emily i just wanted to thank you for helping me make my page look pretty now. YOU ROCK!! i cant wait to see you.. soon. love ya
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Time:11:27 pm
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Well Christmas is over and i got a ton of cool things. But for some reason everything just wasn't the the same. This was the first one without my aunt, uncle and cousins. So the whole family had their issues on Christmas. Then I just wasn't really in the mood for all the happiness of everything. Latley I have been very depressed and just really keeping to myself. I don't really know why though. It doesn't have to so with what happened last week, because I noticed myself acting this ways before any of it happened. About a month ago I was so happy with my life and now I hate it. I hate EVERYTHING about it. There isn't on thing that I like. I hate the fact the my mom is dating Brian. I hate him. I hate that I don't have a boyfriend. I hate the way I look. I need to figure out why I am like this and get over it. I don't like being this down and so negitave. I really can't wait until meggy comes home so I can tell her everything and she can make everything better. She always can make any situation better for me. Sometimes I dont know what I would do without her as a friend. Actually I don't know where I would be right now if we hadn't became as close as we are. I also love emily and sarah. They try to make me feel better. But sometimes its just easier to tell meg. but funny thing is most of the time emily know things before meg does. I need to go to bed. It seems if I am sleeping I can't make anyone mad at me or i can't doing anyting wrong. Another thing is ever since my mom and brian have gotten close she has been really hard on me. I can never do anything right for her anymore. It seems like everytime i turn around she's yelling at me for something. I really wish i could just get way from everything.
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Time:08:24 pm
Current Mood:happyhappy
Today was the longest day ever!! i didnt do really anything. My mom worked at 230 this morning and got off at 1030 so she came home and slept. So i just watched TV and hung out at home. I went to get the mall and i got a card for my moms cuz. So that would be like my 2nd cuz. When i opened it up there was a $50 git certificate to Park MAll. I was so shocked. I like him and all but i have never really been around him for very long. My mom and him are really close and all so maybe that had something to do with it. But now i feel like iam in an weird position because i have to call him and tell him thank you. Iam really not that comfortable in those kind of situations. So now i cant wait until after Xmas. Then i will get to go shopping with all the money i got from the family. But my mom told me that i have to wait until then tho. So i dont buy the same things. PLus i wouldnt want to go with out megan. I already told her that we were going shoppin. I miss her and ra tho. THey havent been gone very long but still i miss them. And of course i miss emily too. IT seems like i have to see the wesley in order to see emily. IAm not sure why that is. Emily by the way i liked you last Lj. It was so pretty. Iam guessing that was some kind of song. You'll have to tell me about it. I liked it so much that i printed it out and its going to go on my notebook with the nelly/mcgraw song and the other little thing i got from you about men and frogs. I love you emily!
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